Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Reuben's memorial
The car rode into the carpark of Blk 137.I could hear 'Fairest Lord Jesus' being sung from the inside of the car. I knew that it had to be reality...Reuben's gone.It wasn't surprising as to see the amount of people at the memorial. Reuben must have been touching the hearts of many people. I'm glad to know that he has been loved by many. I walked into the void deck as Pastor Erickson led out with the singing. There were tears in the eyes of many. I couldn't help by to shed a few tears.
When Aunty Patsy talked about Reuben, I couldn't help but to feel terribly upset. The past than unfolded slowly in my mind. I can faintly remember going on a trip with Reuben and Shimona too East Java. Reuben was than 7 , Shimona,10 and I being a toddler of 2 years old. They were than my elder brother and sister. They took care of me and played with me. At 7,Reuben already had that natural instinct of being a protector of the smaller and weaker ones. I can't remember in details...though I wish I could remember more.When I entered first year primary school, I was bullied every now and than. Reuben would than comfort me and be the 'gentle giant'(as what his platoon mates would call him) he is . Whenever I had to wait for my mom and when he was still around, he would sometimes come and keep me company. He was a big brother you could really count on.
I'm now having this super bad headache...Have no idea why...There's this empty feeling in me...I wish it could be gotten rid off.
Dearest Reuben gor gor,
I hope that you're having a good rest now. I know you sleep like a rock...and when its time to wake up, I would be there ^.^ I've grown...no more the small girl with two ponytails you knew than...but, you'd still play with me right? We could play instruments together with JieJie :) you haven't finish recording the song with her yet. You've to write more when you're enough sleep ok?
